omg insanely happy right now ok heh
hung out at the TP hostel with alvin on wednesday and thursday and today i went to sleep with him in the morning and asdkjflajlghalHSwe at first it was just normal sleeping then i put my head on his shoulder and then he put his arm around my waist when i wasn’t facing him and when i faced him he suddenly grabbed me and pulled me close hahahahahaha holeeeeee sheeeeet
and i was like “asdaklj what the fuck” but i pulled him closer too and arranged myself so my tits didn’t hurt lol so fucking nice when we fit together sigh brb dying
i swear we fit together like two puzzle pieces. could’ve lain there forever
he held my head close and yknow breathed in deep, insanely cute! kept nudging me with his nose and then kissed me on the cheek because i think he thought i was sleeping lol then he was nudging his way down to my lips but I WAS DAMN SHY SO I ‘TURNED IN MY SLEEP’ HAHAHAHAHA~
but later i held him closer and his face was in my neck and i felt him ‘mwah’ me hahahahaha beyond kawaii! i regret not kissing him back lorrrrrrr i just snuggled to him haiz now got no chance alr :’(
so fucking cute
a lot of things have been happening
the past two weeks have been filled with new situations and fun and laughter and i loved meeting new people that were similar to me. note “similar”. not the same.
glad that i’m in a class with friendly people instead of being stuck with those stuck up hipsters. i hope that this sem will be great and i’m looking forward to building my friendship with Darius, Jenny, Cat and Nat.
ugh Dom has been irritating me ttm. the past few days haven’t been so bad though. i’ve been asking God for patience and i seem more mellow around her, taking everything genially and not reacting badly. i KNOW it’s not like me, so i don’t know why i’m acting that way! maybe it’s just Him molding me so i’m cool with that, though it’s a bit strange.
i think i get too excited when good things happen to me. i can’t stop thinking about it i can’t stop talking about it.
ok so 3rd day of camp, Alvin came up to me and asked me to dance so i was just yeah sure because i mean he was a GL and i had no clue what was going on and anyway he was cuter than my previous partner HAHAHA so i ran away with him! he was really cute during the mass dance and veryyyy gentlemanly too. didn’t do any inappropriate touching even when we had to be really close for some of the moves. then he kept appearing beside me ahahaha didn’t know what to do
anw last day nothing much really happened except i caught him staring and smiling at me quite a number of times so i got a LITTLE freaked out (just a little, i swear).
oh then we had Tinychat and he was there so we started talking etc and we made friends and na na na skyped and tweeted and texted~ but he didn’t really talk to me during the dinner at the rooftop :( so i wiped cream on his face hahaha he was so cute ok. we hung out together during Sentosa Refresh (with sharbz, idris, shannon, dani…) and i was hoping he’d throw me into the water but NOOOO that asshole sean had to do it instead hahaha i hope i kicked him or something.
but we played soccer and it was great whahhh i tell you ah some girls make me ashamed to be female. if you want to play, DON’T CARE ABOUT FACE LAH JUST COME INTO THE GAME OH GOD -___-
ok wait i just calculated earnings for May and total is $1255.90 and so i’m giving $377 back to God because He is so awesome. seriously, God? YOU ARE AMAZING THANK YOU SO MUCH. i’m just like… WHOA. i commit Toxic Codeine in Your hands, man! You can control it all you want <3<3<3
yah sooooo Alvin and i have been texting and stuff and it’s not like i don’t give hints lol but i think he’s kinda testing the waters so idk haiz..
oh so i tried smoking on saturday. TRIED being the key word. it was hilarious ok i don’t even think i breathed it in HAHAHAHAHA i felt the menthol in my mouth and tasted the flavour but nothing went into my lungs… at least i didn’t feel it!! didn’t cough or anything so i just blew out trying to see smoke and i can’t remember if there was any HAHAHAHAHA REALLY SUPER LAME. then Sandy scolded me in front of everyone -__- paiseh…
aish
everything will fall into place eventually
(Source: inspirationinblackandwhite)
okay fuck i’m torn between crying and screaming because i’m just so fucking SICK OF BEING LEFT OUT.
i know i may not be the nicest person out there, and i may be prickly and sarcastic sometimes, but if you guys really don’t like me that much, why don’t you just tell me so i can stop hanging out with you
I get so fucking sad when one of you asks me something like “hey so how was – last week?” and I’m just like… “what are you talking about” and then they go on obliviously, rubbing salt into the wound, telling me over and over again that I wasn’t invited
It’s hard enough that I’m usually the one girl amongst you guys and I know you have your guy outings and I don’t want to intrude but I feel so lonely sometimes
Argh forget it
Maybe I should make the april fools joke come true and just leave because I obviously don’t mean much to most of you
Do you know that none of you, save shermaine, reacted much to that whole joke? Yeah I get it, it was april’s fools and your guards were up but honestly, if I went, would you care?
…
I don’t think so.
i really enjoyed working at savour. didn’t get to know pia and virgilio that well but cesar was a dear! he’s so nice i love him (: i think he’ll make a great dad to some lucky kid! sadly he says that he might not have a girlfriend when he gets back because they fought and when i told him to get her flowers, he just laughed and said it wasn’t his fault so why should he? aw man :(
and oh my god i ended up with that alexis chan. wtf. she’s the girl who was going on and on in my formspring and somehow i ended up in the same team as her! _|_ suay like fuck. typical blur fuck which i can’t stand. bloody annoying, irresponsible and just plain dumb. stupid sweaty fat bitch.
beryl was so bloody cheerful it’s almost a fault. but she’s too nice, seriously. freaking nice. it’s amazing. i just look at her and wonder, how can you be so cheerful?? it’s impossible to me ahahaha but thank god for her, else i think i’d have slapped alexis.
oh jun heng is nice too but he’s such a worrywart hahahaha~
ohohoh it was so freaking obvious that eric was totally coming on to me k. AND HE HAS A BLOODY GIRLFRIEND. WHAT A PLAYER. these kind of guys should be slapped.
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i miss you :(((((((((((((((((((((((((((( i miss our midnight calls.
goodnight
eee eric was the dude that asked jie to be his gf after like 1 wk lol
